My obsession with the columbine massacre?

for some strange reason i have an obsession with the columbine shooters.i dont no why.i have always been deppressed and facinated with dark stuff but why am i so obessed with the columbine tragedy.and no i would never hurt any one.i hate myself and feell powerless all the time for being ugly.but were do you think the facination comes from.and if you havent heard of the columbine massacre.it was when two teenagers shot up there school on hitlers birthday which took place on april 20th.

My obsession with the columbine massacre?
The weird thing about life is that we are our greatest critic... you most likely view yourself more harshly than others.





I agree with Ade, try to focus on the positive and not the darkness...it might affect you more stronly that you believe.
Reply:Something about the event just stands out. Maybe its the whole story behind it. But eh, someone else will take their place in popularity with a much better backstory Report It

Reply:Why not focus on getting a makeover and not being ugly anymore? Nothing like new clothes and hair to make you feel better.
Reply:If you read your question, you will see you answered it yourself: "i hate myself and feel powerless all the time for being ugly" says a lot about you. that is a very dark way to think, and thoughts like that are insidiously destructive. you are fascinated because you see a little of you IN them. They too felt dark and powerless -- the difference being they over-sensitized it to the point of killing.


Now if you are a teenager -- as most people at YA are -- i can tell you life DOES get easier as you get older. For one thing, the kids that tease you for your looks, are the bullies that end up either in jail, or dead from doing something illegal. Also, having dark thoughts is normal -- 75% of ALL teens, ages 13-17 get depressed. That's a LOT of people. Also, when kids pick on you to the point where you don't want to go to class, just stop reacting.... end of story. As long as you react by crying or something, you are their favorite play toy. Stop reacting, they will eventually get bored, and stop. If they tease you for your geeky friends, DON'T ditch them. Because even if you do, you won't be cool... the bullies will still see you as their favorite toy. Not to mention you betray good friends.





Anyway -- like i said -- bullies always end up in jail, or dead. Why? Because they are used to totally getting their own way... and sooner or later real life comes along and kicks their butt royal. At school, they can throw stuff and beat kids up -- in REAL life, the cops call that assult and battery... it lands you in jail everytime, and goes on the kids record. So just be patient, ignore the damn bullies, and things will get better. I went through the same thing as you, when i was in school.
Reply:You'd be surprised how many people do. They're are web sites dedicated to Eric and Dylan.
Reply:Wow that first answer is so superficial.. go to a therapist. you need someone to talk to and work your problems out with. looks are not everything, and the older you get, the more you realize that. Try yoga and exercise, i know it sounds dumb but physical activity will get your mind off of dark thoughts and release endorphins, with makes you feel happy. Also start a journal and write what you're feeling, it will take away some of the stress. Even if you look like a model, you will still feel ugly on the inside if you try to hide what you are feeling.

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